For the last six months, F seems to be just for fun.
It is the first time in her life that existence doesn’t feel like a burden, but more like a gift. The interesting thing is that nothing has really changed in the outer world. If anything, there are a couple more challenges, before referred to as problems, but they somehow don’t matter at all. I take it as part of the training and move along with it the best I can, knowing than sooner than later, whatever obstacle I encounter on the way will at some point fade away.
I feel lucky for everything that has been given to me and I remind myself regularly that the three of us (me, myself and I) are just phenomena with an expiration date. This makes existence lighter, it takes the self-inflicted weight of being human away.
Life is fun, because I’m calm and grateful, because “I” means a little bit less every day, because “I” is just a perspective that will someday go away.
NOTA MENTAL
This text was written during a hype. For the first time in life, I experienced calmness and gratefulness. I was a clear narrative with a beginning and an end. But as we said, it was a hype. The way is sprinkled with deep realizations that life will soon put to the test, and the universal truth that you feel down to your marrow, will suddenly turn into a memory you can’t replicate. But don’t desperate, it’s just a cycle. Just know that attempting replication is useless and get your hands dirty, make the soil fertile again, so that when the next hype comes, you can strengthen the bond to the source.
